Still

You were
and all at once
you were not
More than a thought
not quite a truth
but you were real enough
to feel
to feed
to need me
always next to my heart
you touched me
and I loved you

I brought you out
of nothing into
life and never questioned
should you be mine,
it was always
what it was
and you held me in your hands
your tiny hands
as I held you in my body

How can it be that
you were here one moment
a piece of me
a part of my body
connected to my heart
and in a moment
I felt you slip away
and I knew
that you were gone
and I would never
know the light of your eyes

A silent scream
a deafening crack
of something so small
barely alive
becoming nothing at all
and fading fast
I felt you die inside me
and the world turned black
the light snapped out
My life is over

How can I accept
that you were here
one moment, tangled in me
the next, disconnected
and gone
You needed me to live, sweet
I need you now
Where did you go?

And, why can't I follow...?